Of stewing and brewing

People are lucky.

Make that very lucky.

Why, one may ask? Quite simply, murder is a crime.

Yes, yes ... it's far too late or too early (it all depends on whom one asks) for such angry thoughts but I have to opine that there are some people I wouldn't mind erasing from this existense.

Now, before one starts counting back when one did what to whom--and why the what was done, for that matter--let us take a step back and admit that such rage and hatred exist within us. I am honest enough to admit that I offend easily. The less discerning and those simple ones would say I'm high-strung or overly sensitive. I prefer cantankerous. Same difference, no? The latter sounds better however to me.

I sometimes wonder if it's healthy to live and go about carrying an exposed nerve, daring people to just push you one step closer to unleashing Abyss-knows-how-many-vials-of-wrath that you've been steeping inside your head like a thundering, trammelled dam.

Once the floodgates--and the damage--has been unleashed, is it even worth it? Or is it advisable to unleash it in the first place? In a life that is temporary, where the Judgement of the eternal awaits us all is it even worth going Hiroshima on someone--or about something--no matter how justifiable?

I am of two minds about this. Exposing such venomous vitriol might make others leery and mind their P's and Q's but it also paints you as unstable and erratic. On the other hand, just swallowing whatever abuse others heap on you make you look like a pathetic doormat. Truth to tell, with the choice of being known as pathetic or pushover on one hand and foaming lunatic on the other isn't much of a choice. Perhaps the choice is there ... only my decision to view it as absolutes of black and white blinds me to the grey areas and its myriad alternatives.

Perhaps.

Rumination notwithstanding, I still maintain that some people are better off dead. Dead in the most agonizingly slow and vicious way possible. And that I get to watch.

Does that make sound like a disturbingly angry person? Deal with it.